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I have problemsIt wasn't that long ago I was willing to use other people for my own satisfaction.
I was one of those jerks aware of their power over others.
I had nearly everyone I wanted. When I wanted them.
I would shove people away when I had felt done with them, and call them back later on when I wished for more from them.
They knew the rules - Don't call me, I'll call you.
Yes they lead their own lives without me, but I was always a thought in their minds.
"When will she call again? Will she call again"
Oh questions questions..
Lets face it, I had a problem, and still partially do.
Sexual conduct has too much of an effect on my self worth.
LilituThat's one song whose music runs straight through me and smacks my heart with a tiny warm hammer. It's probably the only song that will bring out any true emotion I am feeling in a moment, but suppressing. I don't know what it is about it, it just has that effect.
The lyrics are as follows;
A still born boy who didn't get to where
Your mother felt, if you'd have come from there
Your baby arms, that never grow
You save yourself, from a desperate soul
Once again we lost
All control to lust
Once again we loved
And never got to end
A mothers pride, i want to take you down
A degutted child that didnt show
To raise tender, unholy chil
PREY NO MOREPREY NO MORE
Rope dug into Patrick’s wrists as he struggled to free his hands. His hot, damp breath washed over his face, trapped by the fabric sack secured over his head.
A floorboard creaked. Patrick froze, his back rigid against the chair, and strained his ears. Another creak.
“Hello?” he called.
The sound of swishing fabric.
“Who’s there? Where am I? Why’d you bring me here?” Blurred memories swam through his mind: drinking at the bar; stumbling home; a shadow sweeping out from an alley.
Fingers grasped his chin and jerked his head upward. “Hush.” A woman’s voice.
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